Explanatory Irrelevance + Logical <Supervenience 1+5+9+25+35+15+7 = (4+3) = (7)

The lines of growth are divine laws which rule the invisible worlds. Our life is also subject to these laws. They guide the evolution of all that lives.

Thus man fights against himself, his highest self, when he neglects these laws; he owes his sad experiences to himself.

They may appear to him as an injustice, and cause his mind to rebel, or fill his heart with bitterness; in reality all painful experiences are the fault of him who has passed through them. He has drawn them towards himself by his own actions.

Life is a magic art; we conjure up our fate and it leads us to wisdom and insight. In this way the forces of the soul drive man through experiences that are necessary to his growth.

He who sees life thus, does not grumble at fate, neither does he allow himself to be cast down. He accepts life as willed by himself, .......in the conviction that nobody can wrong him, and he follows the path that leads to perfection, knowing that he takes an active part in a great plan of life.

I was on my way to the office to make sure everything was under control this morning. Yes this Christmas Morning.

And then all the happiness and optimism I had for the day was smashed by the most glorious incredible traffic I had ever seen....maybe the most glorious I had ever seen in MY life.

UNTIL.............

Nevermind...I only thought it was smashed.

No it's not. Not Winter that is. Not where I am....not in Orlando. The problem with this is that living here is like going on that vacation that you've either needed to go on or didn't want to go on..but if you take a vacation for to long ....there is always that point where you think to yourself....I have had enough "fun" and I can't wait to get home but then your flight gets delayed or you miss your flight and have to stay an extra day.....well that extra day...... is everyday here.

There is someone reading over my shoulder right now. it's the second person to read over my shoulder since I started writing this. It's ok I don't mind.

So I miss everyone I ever knew from Virginia and the few of those I knew from Maryland. If any of you are reading this..... hi.

Chance does favor the prepared mind.

I cannot believe it...after all these "years". After all the reading and talking fast for long periods of time without taking a breath or a drink of water when I really needed one. After Asking question after question and putting all the possible/impossible answers through a processor that only I seem to be able to access....and even after I took all those processed answers and formed more questions and then put those through the processor once again....NOPE...NO...After ALL that I cannot believe I didn't see what was happening...at all.

That's why I'm here...here at 10:05pm in my studio apartment in Orlando typing on the laptop that was given to me by my company.

I think I know what happened.

You know that...Non-Place...you go when you enjoy what your reading so much that you refuse to stop...or when you are drawing or in the process of making a really good song...or when you are Sleeping. It doesn't matter how you get there. It's the place your are in when someone trys to talk to and you don't answer even if you hear them because you would rather continue on in that place.

That's where I am ....that place....I live there in a studio apartment.

I was driving on down I-4 West here in Florida 2 weeks ago and heard a very quiet sound ….the moment I heard it I knew it was those gears…shifting again… and No….the gears of the car….No… not those.

What I didn’t realize was the full extent to those gears…but that’s always their intention. What I realize now is I found a pocket in time and space that created a reality where I work in a town that Walt Disney built. I have been hired to work full time at a company called Channel Intelligence located on Celebration Blvd in a town called Celebration. I keep saying Celebration. You would to if you went there every day 8am – 5pm. Really you would.





...And here is where I work.






I'm Satisfied.

You know how it is...Yep you...Know how...It is.

You will notice that I mentioned in my bio that I get angry, very angry because I can’t update more often and it was because I’m a computer tech slave for Wachovia. The getting angry part is true but I recently found out that the Wachovia Tech Slave part being the reason was only 27% true. The reason that provides the missing 73% of not being able to update is...I just dislike staying put ...in one dumb chair/seat/floor spot when I could be not staying put.

Plus,...I just can’t limit myself to using this keyboard. There’s just to many rules involved and hypothetically speaking even if I was to get past having to conform to the burden of using this keyboard to “update"...I still have see my thoughts imprisoned within the text box made specifically for journal entries as I degrade their true meaning and form into something that might make sense so that someone who desires to be updated and not confused as hell.

Sooooo, About That.....I decided to compromise....I will use this keyboard to write within the text box specifically made for journal entries IF AND ONLY IF the entries from this day forward ARE CURSED to make little sense.

Hi. I’m at another bank for work.
3065 Lawrenceville Hwy, Atlanta, GA…Wachovia bank. I’m alone in an office sitting behind a desk. The temperature in this office is fluctuating between 73 and 74 degrees. Today is there opening day.

I’m eating a chocolate cookie wishing I had some more water.

I built this bank. Not the structure but the computers and network.
Hmm....Why am I Here?? I build banks not work at them afterward….Why am I asking why I’m here…I know why I’m here. The temperature is now 75 degrees.

If you were to walk into the bank and happen to glance over at me in this office I would appear to be working but I’m really just waiting. The walls in this room are currently holding me in my waiting. The only reason I know what lies beyond these walls in every direction of this building is because I built this bank and had previously walked in every room ……as opposed to just walking in for the first time and sitting down.

I bet somebody reading this is in a room. I wonder how many people in rooms right now know what lies beyond the walls of that room in every direction?

If don’t keep writing …….I will just be sitting here……and will be in the same position doing nothing but …well nothing…and when the tellers or platform users walk by and glance over they will start to notice I have the same look on my face and am in the same position every time and might feel the need to make small talk. I am so glad I am just here to wait and that these walls are not barriers hindering me in anyway whatsoever. That’s why I can think about them without becoming threatened or bored that I have to “be here” …..After all, they are just a separator between a system and that which external to that system.

I Convert Southtrust banks to Wachovia Banks now.

I live in hotels throughout Florida, Alabama, Mississippi, and Texas and if I'm not sleeping I'm driving 6 - 14 hours to get to the next bank.

So what I'm really trying to say is....I live in a different Southtrust Bank everyday.

One day,(about 2 days ago) I was driving from Dallas, TX to Mobile,AL ....This means I had to drive through Louisiana and Mississippi to get there.....It was wonderfully delightful. As you know, alot of Louisiana, Mississippi, and Alabama is destroyed now from these hurricane things. These states have no hotel rooms to stay in anymore because they are all full or underwater. They also have a curfew from 11:00pm to 6:00am and that means nothing is open during those hours....when I say nothing I want you to know what really matters is NO GAS STATIONS are open either.

This is where everything gets awesome. I found myself in Gulfport, Mississippi at exactly 2:10am.... and I had a really small problem. My GET GAS NOW light had been on for 15 miles....and every single exit I took to get gas...had a gas station that didn't exist anymore, was closed, or flooded. With 2 miles of gas left I hit a checkpoint with some cops and I asked them "where I could get gas for the love of god..."

They casually told me I couldn't. The curfew was in effect(it was about 2:25am now) and to wait for a gas station to open. I drove over the median and rolled in and parked right next to a pump at a closed gas station. First I had to pee behind it (since nothing was open)....then I got back in the car rolled down the windows, opened the sun roof and had Chris set his phone to wake us up at 7:00am when the gas station opened. I slept in my 100 degree 100% humidity filled car at the pump...woke up pumped gas and I am now in Mobile, Alabama in a the last Days Inn hotel room that was available.

This has been awesome and I'm not even being 1.5% sarcastic.

STOP.How is everybody? How am I? I honestly have no idea....or Do I?!!!!

When people ask me how I am or how I’ve been doing..I reach into the section of my mind that produces the auto reply’s and do the necessary calculations that help me equate what would be the most reasonable answer for me to give based on what mutual understanding I think they might have of my real answer...if I decided to give them my real answer.

In the case that that there is only a 10% chance of mutual understanding then I must think of the answer I can give that is closest to my real answer.......... AND THEN of course filter “the answer closest to my real answer” through the guidelines of social politeness & how appropriate my answer is to the situation based on what appears to be their motives for asking in the first place.

However, the the DANGER is the chance that my judgment of what I thought their understanding was ... is going to be is completely wrong.
That’s when things get awkward and I end up trying to play it off but end up saying something backwards or accidentally saying the third word in the my sentence first which causes me to start laughing out loud at how I managed to complicate a simple question of how I was doing which doesn’t make things any less awkward.

It’s not me, who feels awkward,...
But the nice person standing there who only asked how I was doing only to be polite or to appear as if they wanted to really know how I was doing with the mutual understanding that is was only a kind gesture requiring an auto response...and not 1% chance that I would think that they really wanted to hear my real answer or anything close to it even if it is within the guidelines as I stated above.

If it were storming, the chance of me getting hit by lightning right now is very high…almost too high. This is because, in FLORDIA the air is filled with moisture due to the crushing humidity…and electricity + water = a high chance of me being struck by lightning.

By the way, I’m outside in a Wachovia bank parking lot. Lightning or no lightning, I am writing from a laptop in our Scion TC in a bank parking lot. Who is this “our”?? …. Scion TC?? …. Laptop??

Let me explain QUICK . I started seeing Chris who lived in New Jersey while “visiting Florida”, then I moved to FL and he decided to move from New Jersey to FL, then his brother wanted to move here so I flew to Virginia got in my car ….drove to all the way to Jersey… picked up Chris’s brother and then turned around and started to drive all the way back to FL …. ALL IN ONE DRIVE. I made it to Georgia.

We got an apartment in 24 hours.


We bought a brand new Scion TC.


I accidentally smashed and totaled the rental car on the way back from buying our new Scion TC...Chris travels for work. He converts banks. That's why I'm writing from this from a Wachovia parking lot.

I am still adapting to this Tallahassee FL DIRTY SOUTH Life. They are slow in this place. It’s pretty hot here. They talk like southerners & I don’t. However, I do get comfort from the fact that there are potholes here and so is Chris.

Tallahassee is an event horizon. Only black holes have event horizons, so finding an event horizon…is finding a black hole. When Meep Mass approaches the event horizon, time slows to the point where it takes a infinitely long "time" to reach the black hole.

In the mean time, the black holes gravitational pull on light causes the Meep to appear to fade away. As for the Meep? All we know for sure is that in a black hole, reality as we know it ceases to exist….How am I able to write to you from an event horizon? I am writing to you from inside a reality that I have created out of a few meep sacks and a couple of cats who weren’t doing anything important at the time.

I miss everyone I have ever met and those of you I have never met.

If you are receiving this message then you must be close in distance because I am now within the Static limit aka Once inside of you can only move towards the singularity and communication with anyone outside of the static limit is next to impossible unless you are relatively close in distance and my apologies goes to those few who have already received fragments of this message...you know who you are.

After I come back from my lovely journey in singularity land. I will be an unrecognizable form made up of my previous life data scrambled beyond everyone’s wildest dreams.

I have taken on the task of training a new assistant. Her name is Rosemary but …that’s a terrible name for a assistant. I told her as long as she works for me she will get used to being called Lanoo.

As you all know a Lanoo has to dread external living influence‘s such as magnetic emanations from living creatures. It is only by virtue of a strict observance of the foregoing rules that a Lanoo can hope to acquire in good time the Siddhis of the Arhats, the growth which makes a lanoo become gradually One with the Universal All.



Keeping animals as pets only …..leaves out of account ….the fact that it is only through association with man that these creatures can be individualized.

MANY PEOPLE tell me not to hire these creatures. It appears those people are only capable of considering the possibility that in employing these creatures… Man may allow himself to be adversely affected by the animal. They forget altogether the beneficent influence which the Man may intentionally bring to bear upon his younger brother….the younger brother being the creature who is waiting to achieve the initiation of individualization.

There are many forms of selfishness that can delay the pupil' s progress very seriously.
LAZINESS is one of these.



The decision to be a Lanoo once made is a fixed decision,…….and there is NO relinquishment of it and NO TURNING BACK .



Lanoo, there is no point in trying to leave. The dark night takes different forms and different degrees of intensity, according to the ray, the type and the point in evolution of a Lanoo.

From it …….you CANNOT escape.

I am in Florida and have been here since 55,000B.C

I was only supposed to be here for a month. I was to become acquainted with a small pile of Cosmic Dust ………that was fine….Master Meepe keeps blabber mouthing to Saturn about my hobby to present myself as shy, aloof, arrogant when I’m really just uncomfortable communicating. Saturn knew why this happens……HE WANTED to meet a Meep one day and met one in the 3rd house and no Meep was the same ever again.

When I attempted to consult the local meeps they just handed me a meep document that explained the situation…

“With Saturn in the 3rd House, it is not it is not that one is condemned to a life of inarticulate misery hobbling around on crutches missing trains. It’s better expressed as, Jupiter arrives at a friend's for the weekend to discover a party in full swing. Saturn comes to the same house the next weekend to discover his friend's father has just been taken ill.”



"Saturn, the father of the Gods, has been transformed from Eternal Duration into the limited period."

Well it’s time again. There’s no escaping it. That’s fine I don’t want to escape it anymore.

I know it’s time again because I heard the those big metal gears cranking & shifting…..they shifted so loud this time they woke me up out of a dream I was having and the dream was grade A having something to do with discovering the bottom of a rainbow and deciding to stand inside of it….

But I am not mad at those gears for waking me up…after all they have metal gear children and pets to feed and get paid for doing their job….Plus.. when I react by wedging a meep fork between them they actually Spit on me! You know you have crossed the line with a bunch a Metal Gears when they produce spit and can actually spit that spit onto you….GAA!!

I got sick and am now living in the 15th layer of hell where you get to sleep in bed covered with used tissues, a cat taking up 25% of the room and a Scorpio rising Psycho Billy madman with his Mars conjunct Sun and a pompadour taking up 50% of the room…. there is no sleeping in the 15th layer of hell……
JUST the illusion that you will sleep …..

and then the sobering reality that will not sleep….

with a gleam of hope that you are just over reacting and of course you will sleep….followed by the

Unmasking of the actual TRUTH which is…..
How could I sleep??!! How could I possibly sleep while being forced to think About the planets of our solar system being but ATOMS that are inside of and making up an BIGGER entity ……are we are but cells in the body of “ONE ABOUT WHOM NAUGHT MAY BE SAID” …. not I or anyone wlse will ever know not because it’s some crazy secret but because all formulation of ideas about His purpose are impossible until one has completed the term of evolution in our solar system.




It doesn’t stop there. People are planets too just look at President Bush. He is a Leo rising and Leo is represented by the Sun…Al Gore is a Leo rising, Bill Clinton is a Leo, I’m not sure why I can only think of political figures right now but I am sure that all those guys are nothing but WALKING SUNS in the CENTER with their planets..I mean Their People… revolving around them!

Trying to push the limits of my conditioning and limitations hurts.

…..atoms within atoms within more atoms….HA!!!!....a enormous Sphere placed next to a very small one..... THAT’s when I finally fell asleep……for 2 seconds and I’m awake now and it’s 10 am and I just stopped typing for a moment turned my head to the right because I thought I just heard what sounded like… a bird knocking on the door??

I wonder. How long it will take for those stupid little brightly colored hearts in my mind to dim out already. God Damn it.

***you just entered my bedroom to hear me ranting and rambling at Jeff as usual . We are sitting in the bed halfway under the covers***
....... “YEAH Those Guys!? The Masters?! ha! they are a little version of the bigger picture beings that control and SHOWCASE through the planets in our SOLAR SYSTEM!! some of them spend time hanging out in the mineral kingdom as well as..”
***You see me suddenly go to scratch my arm as I pull it out from under the covers…I stop talking look down at my arm***
“....the mineral kingdom as well as.....*screams*....NO!..NO!!..OH NO!!...”

Now I will explain this. While I was going on about cosmic showcase I discovered a Meep spy...…no the meep spy wasn’t you. I pulled my arm out of the covers to scratch it and ON MY ARM WAS THE Biggest Meep Spy I have ever seen.

Here he is. He wasn’t a very good spy because he was 2 inches long and…..well..he was on Right On My Arm.




I don’t kill Meep spys but I do have Jeff put them outside with a paper towel or a cup.
No I don’t kill Meep spys until I executed 2 the other day.

I woke up to the sound of small spy feet by my ear sat the Hell up in bed and punched the spy shown to the right in the diagram....off of MY BED.



Then I slept in a revolving chair twitching for the rest of the night. The night after that I was doing my normal Meep research while sitting on the bed and out of the corner of my eye saw THE ANOTHER SPY CRAWLING at a very fast rate on top of the GAWWWDD DAMN blanket I was under…… … .. .. . . .. . … .. . . .

The SPYder had a small messege attached to him that I recovered……..



I threw it right in the trash later.


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by the way apathyministry I got your e-mail don’t worry. I have been spending my time in a tornado recently so I haven’t had time to write back.

IT happened again thank GOD!!!! After getting $7.00 of gas at Pump #7………..I hit VERY unexpected traffic at around 7pm…...but that’s not what happened……………….what happened is while stopped in bumper to bumper traffic I got the Meep feeling that turns my regular sight into Meep sight.

I started to see the people within the cars for what they REALLY WERE...What are they really? I'll tell you. Atom looking Sacred geometric shapes Smiling Around the place.....depending on what kind of shape they were would determine what other shape they were more likely to go towards and clump with………..then I panicked 1% out of 100 when I accidentally swallowed my gum and the Smiling Shape Friends turned back into regular cars again.

THE REASON THIS HAPPENED………is the same reason I wear this GLORIOUS SHIRT



Below in My Meep Bluprints THE REASON IS CIRCLED.

My Mercury in Virgo located in the 1st house…………is DA REASON.



Everything and Anything about me is in the chart above ............BUT That’s not too important right now because There is a “voice” that you are “hearing” in your mind as you read this………….AND there is a voice that is speaking these words in MY mind as I type them............I can Hear it ........but WHY can I hear it??

Jeff is sitting on the bed drawing and he can’t hear it…..I have assumed that everyone hears a voice in their mind when reading silently…...…Have I assumed wrong?...…I have never heard anybody discuss the matter yet anytime anyone of us reads something we are listening to a voice inside our head that no one else can hear??!!.

Jeff isn’t sitting behind me anymore because it is 7 hours later………. no no, I wasn’t sitting in this chair for 7 hours I was playing Morrowind and then sitting in my car in a some parking lot eating watermelon and pineapple. I spilled a bunch of the juice from the watermelon and pineapple right in my crotch.

Today I while walking in a parking lot with artdecade we bought some gummy bears from some kid holding a crate.

I will tell you that it is 4:40am the next day and I just realized we paid $10.00 for two packages of gummi bears.
No I’m worried about it.
What do I worry about? Things that don’t matter like everyone else.
On my way home tonight….I thought about the Key to the Meepdom.

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If I was to say,
“Why can’t you learn everything there is to know about the universe in one day!!? You are a Rather Stupid person!!”
What would you say about that?
You would beg to differ?
Right?

If you can’t answer me then you must at least tell me what gives you joy.

What gives me Meep joy?



I’m SERIOUS to the 555% Meep….....Every…..I mean EVERY person reading this tell me what gives you joy and if you can bear it…….tell me why.

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Anyone reading this will be on a date with me for the next 7-12 minutes while reading.

In fact you are already in my car and you just asked me where we are going. I’ll tell you where we’re going. We are going to Meepland and I’m so glad your excited about it. Alright here’s the plan…..When we get there I’m going to push you out of the car in a happy and comforting way and I expect you to fall out with ease while smiling. In Meepland the ground is made of pillows so now that I just told you that it should change any opinions you previously had about being pushed out of my car.
If you show even one ounce of fear or struggle and scream……… The local Meep’s with think you to be unpleasant……..and then you’ll have to go the rest of the date being very embarrassed.

OK. Now that we’re safe in Meepland I can tell you that I only took you on this date to tell you about the problem I have been having with my former personal assistant.
His name is Meow Meow and I hired him for his quality of extreme dedication and persistence.



He was wonderful at first. He was hired to follow me around and take note of imortant things. It’s a shame I had to fire him for hitting my other employee felicity on the back. This guy was way to serious….way to dedicated and ended up becoming obssesed with following me around. He has been out of a job for 2 days now but he just keeps taking notes. Everytime I go into the bathroom I hear him crying and scratching outside the door in sheer agony and mental anguish for his longing to take more notes.

Meepland is the only place he cannot reach me. Our date is almost over but before I let you stop reading this…..I must show you his last notes…..I am glad I fired him when I did.




He was supposed to be taking notes about things like how to open the vent next to the computer to let the air conditioning circulate…..and the right method of picking up the crumbs I drop when I’m eating crispy crème donuts.

It's a shame.

"Why don't you go talk to Protoman. I'm sure he has some good information to give you."



So, it was 12:00 at night and I was off to do my nightly routine of filling up my back left tire on my car with air. I drive on the interstate a lot. The interstate has a lot of nails on it for some reason so I always have nails in my tires. It is TOO DAMN EXSPENSIVE TO KEEP BUYING TIRES. So I choose to just keep filling them back up with air.

Anyway, I talked Jeff into coming with me because the only gas station open is what is known as "The Murderous Gas station". This is because it is a rest stop on I-95 and only Myself and Murderer's go there at 12:00 at night.


I actually met a nice Murderer there but I was busy that night and refused his offer to get in his van.

Well anyway, off we went. Unfortunately I was stopped by the police on the way there. I wasn't worried because I was going the speed limit exactly and stopped the only stop sign we passed. Here is what happened......

COP: License and registration.
COP: *looks at license* *shines flashlight on my county sticker*
COP: You failed to stop at that stop sign back there
Me: Oh.......I guess I did. *thinking NO I DIDN'T! Whats UP?*
COP: Ms. Martin do you know your driving record?? Are you a good driver?
Me: I not sure of my record..I used to be a bad driver but I...
COP: Ever gotten any speeding tickets?
Me: Yes..maybe 2 but I went to that driving class and I've gotten better...
COP: Just one second I'll be back after I look at your info.

A LONG TIME GOES BY................Then he comes back.

COP: Can I ask you to get out of the car for a second.
Me: Sure. *I get out he takes me over to the sidewalk*
COP: *shines his flash light on my bumper stickers* Are you a metal head?
Me: Uhhh....No..not really....I consider myself lots of things
COP: Pantera sticker... you ever seen them live?
Me: No but I hear there good...*thinking I guess this cop is a Pantera fan??*
COP: You wanna know your driving record? It's a Plus 1. That's pretty good. I'm just gonna give you a warning.
Me: Oh cool! :D

THEN TWO OTHER COPS PULL UP.....HIS BACK UP............

COP: I'm gonna ask your boyfriend to get out. *Has jeff against the car Frisking him*
COP: Do you mind if I search your car?
Me: sure go ahead :D *thinking...he's pretty nice*

THE COP TAKES OUT EVERY SINGLE ITEM OUT OF MY CAR INCLUDING EVERYTHING IN THE TRUNK.(alot of Stuff)
He found an old green box I had in my trunk that had some old prescription medicine and some incense in rock form in little plastic bags that I had forgotten about.

To make a long story short, He told me he thought it was Crystal Meth. He told me he didn't believe that I was going to get air in my tire that late at night. He told me he thought I made Crystal Meth in my basement.

I told him It was Frankincense and Myrrh and it smells really good when it's burned.

He asked me what my goal in life was. I told him to be a spiritual teacher and that my dreams were too big to be put into words. He said..."I wish I had dreams that big."
I told him "everyone can have dreams that big.......even you."

He let me go. But he kept my green box of medicine and incense. I told him he could call me if he wanted to when he finds out I was just a nice girl putting air in her tire late at night and not a Crystal Meth dealer.

I respect those guys. I'm not even joking.

Hi. There is something you should know about the SUN. There is blazing Sphere in the sky everyday.

While driving the other day, I saw the sun setting and it appeared much bigger than usual with a pink and fuchsia glow around it from the clouds. While sitting at a red light I looked over at the people in the cars doing various things….
One women was staring at her ring, One man was fixing his hair even though there was nothing wrong with it, Another women was holding the bridge of her nose as if she had a headache. None of them were looking at the bigger than usual blazing Sphere of Fuchsia and Pink in the sky in front of them. This is what I wanted to tell those people and what I wanted them to know.

Yes, the SUN an enormous blazing sphere is seen in the sky every single day. It shines its beams of illuminating warm rays on this world. It shines for ALL no matter if it is a Human, a Plant, or your local pet. It shines on criminals, on politicians, it even shines on all the people you ever considered to be annoying or stupid. It illuminates no matter what.

WHY DOES IT DO THIS?????!!!!!!! Because the Sun has a Soul inside of it just like we do. YES THE SUN HAS A SOUL INSIDE IT. This Soul is what gives it the will to Shine. It is called……..The Heart of The Sun.

The Sun is SO very attractive and loves to make sure everything and everyone knows that ….It’s Magnetism…It’s Pull…It even has it’s own solar system to be the center of.

BUT WHY!!!!!??? Why is it so attractive? Where does its get SUCH POWER??
It’s power comes from a comes from a far Greater Sun. It is called The Central Spiritual Sun. In the shoreless ocean of space radiates the central, spiritual, and Invisible sun. It is THE MOST ATTRACTIVE Sun and is the Source of all Life.

This Central Sun Science is obliged to accept astronomically, but it cannot deny the presence in Sidereal Space of a central body in the milky way, a point unseen and mysterious, the ever-hidden centre of attraction of our Sun and system.

The Milky Way


From Space.com:

“Scientists announced today some of the most compelling evidence to date for the existence of a colossal black hole at the center of the Milky Way Galaxy, also determining a new and much smaller upper limit to the diameter of the mysterious object.
Experts were already fairly sure that the black hole resided at the center of our galaxy, packing the mass of 2.6 million Suns into an area smaller than our solar system. Their confidence came from reading the motions of millions of fast-moving stars that swarm around the dense, central object. Yet they've never seen it -- black holes by definition are invisible and they don't really know how much space it takes up.”

Until the scientist can accept the fact that the light which to all appearances comes from the visible sun is but the reflection of certain rays of a much greater central sun and the third type of electricity, his researches in that line will be unsatisfactory.

Thank GOD for this Great Cosmic Magnet. I will NEVER be afraid of drifting into the blackness of space again.

*gives a extreme look of relief*

Hi.
There is a guy Named Sun Myung Moon who is leader of the Unification Church
He has declared himself the Messiah. On March 23rd in a Senate building in front of congressmen and senators…..Sun Myung Moon declared “Emperors, kings and presidents had declared to all heaven and earth that Reverend Sun was humanity’s Savior, Messiah, Returning Lord and True Parent.”
A Congress man crowned him and his wife with golden crowns during the ceremony.





Here are some of his “Messiah like” quotes:
“Individualism is what God hates the most and what Satan likes best”

”The whole world is in my hand, and I will conquer and subjugate the world." - Sun Myung Moon, Master Speaks

"So from this time of peak every people or every organization that goes against the Unification Church will gradually come down or drastically come down and die. Many people will die -- those who go against our movement." - Master Speaks

"Am I foolish and insignificant or am I great? I gave all the individuals in the world cause to kneel down in front of me." - Today's World

"The time has come when the whole world must be concerned about me. From now on, American Christianity must follow me." - Today's World

“From now all Christians are going to hell. They have to pay more indemnity. How can we save the earth? No matter how difficult it may be for Christians to lose their position, they will, because I can defeat them anytime, anywhere. You have to take that attitude. We have to repent before the original American people. Don't forget it. Those under forty-seven years old belong to me. President Clinton is under forty-seven. He represents the bad presidents of United States history. How can he digest this? By following me. Reverend Moon is the most serious man. You have to have this concept.”

This guy says silly things. These things cause me to feel silly and then laughing starts.
After all, There is, however, no point in attacking Christianity. Christianity cannot be attacked, it is an expression - in essence, … of the love of God.

Sun Myung Moon guy……..VS……….an expression

I wonder if this Sun guy controls menus in Deli’s?

VENUS - The School with five strict Grades. This again is a planetary scheme closely related to ours, but its planetary Logos is in a more advanced group of students in the cosmic sense than is our planetary Logos. Most of its hierarchical instructors come from the fifth cosmic plane, and are a peculiar group of Manasadevas of very exalted rank. They are each depicted in the archives of our Hierarchy as holding a trident of fire surmounted by five green emeralds.

The sunset today was very very pink, swirly and bizzare. While driving I ajusted all my mirrors just so I could see this bizzare sky a little better.
Later on, after teaching Felicity (Jeffs cat) how to clean the carpet.. the right way.. I then I read the question....How do you bounce back from having a bad day??
I read on to view what others had said
Some take baths......?....
Some go on a shopping sprees....
Some go out for drink or eat a tub of ice cream......
Some sleep and some watch tv.........
Then I stopped reading about bad days to see Felicity (Jeffs cat) standing next to her own vomit....Oh Boy....I gave her too much cleaning to do. Just then Jeff came home complaing of a having a bad day. He asked me if I had seen Felicity (Jeffs cat) and I told him I gave her the rest of the day off.

Then I told I had just the thing for his bad day and showed him this picture of the Earth taken from 4 Billion miles away.



"The Earth is a very small stage in a vast cosmic arena. Think of the rivers of blood spilled by all those generals and emperors, so that, in glory and triumph, they could become the momentary masters of a fraction of a dot. Think of the endless cruelties visited by the inhabitants of one corner of this pixel on the scarcely distinguishable inhabitants of some other corner, how frequent their misunderstandings, how eager they are to kill one another, how fervent their hatreds."

"Look again at that dot. That's here. That's home. That's us. On it everyone you love, everyone you know, everyone you ever heard of, every human being who ever was, lived out their lives. The aggregate of our joy and suffering, thousands of confident religions, ideologies, and economic doctrines, every hunter and forager, every hero and coward, every creator and destroyer of civilization, every king and peasant, every young couple in love, every mother and father, hopeful child, inventor and explorer, every teacher of morals, every corrupt politician, every "superstar," every "supreme leader," every saint and sinner in the history of our species lived there - on a mote of dust suspended in a sunbeam."

Limits limits and still more limits. I love limits. Some would say I AM IN LOVE with limits…. The kind of love I speak of looks like when only the very tops of the trees are illuminated by the sun.
When would something like that occur????!!!!!!!!!!!
A storm is forming, the dark clouds veil the sun a certain way in certain spots

A terrible storm has already occurred, the sun pierces through the dark clouds that have not moved on yet

And by an event which happens everyday, when the darkest part of the night blends with the moment before dawn.



During this moment (especially in the summer), fog and the mist distort and hide the physical forms in view until the rays of the rising Sun slowly bring the hidden things (like cats that hang out outside in the morning fog, or stop signs that are hidden in the mist) are brought to full view by the engulfing rays of Sun.

Some fog is not as easy to smash with sun rays.
The black hole that hangs out near Galaxy NGC 1068 has a swirling disk of dust that is 11 light years across and 7 light-years thick. Astronomers were found wandering in despair and bewilderment wondering why the disk of dust is so thick……Good Ol’ Centrifugal force should have flattened it out by now…. “Why the HELL hasn’t Centrifugal force flattened it out by now?!!” they said with tears streaming down their astronomer faces....



Mercy! Is what I’m thinking to myself right now. I know limitations can at times produce tears even in astronomers eyes but that’s only because they forgot to factor in that limitations are just a temporary prison that will cramp and distort in order to provide adequate conditions for the next development of consciousness.
I am also thinking about the time I was eating a salt and vinegar chip and the moment I took a bite a piece flew into my eye. I had up to that point thought salt and vinegar would cause blindness forever. I’m glad I thought that because I was extremely enlightened when there was only extreme stinging pain with no blindness.

“No glamour, no illusion can long hold the man who has set himself the task of treading the razor-edged Path which leads through the wilderness, through the thick-set forest, through the deep waters of sorrow and distress, through the valley of sacrifice and over the mountains of vision to the gate of Deliverance. He may travel sometimes in the dark (and the illusion of darkness is very real); he may travel sometimes in a light so dazzling and bewildering that he can scarcely see the way ahead; he may know what it is to falter on the Path, and to drop under the fatigue of service and of strife; he may be temporarily sidetracked and wander down the by-paths of ambition, of self-interest and of material enchantment, but the lapse will be but brief.”

I am tickled by the effects of the idea of a shadow government. The tickling and ultimate laughter continues when I stay up too late while reading conspiracy theory’s about…..Things.
I’m not laughing because I consider them false……Some of them are true to the people who believe them…..and some of them are just true to the limits of my own perception…
Can anyone actually say that that something isn’t true….THE ANSWER IS NO they can’t….well of course they can but it will be Their truth… Quantum Physics knows what the F it’s talking about when it says that whatever we may believe we "know" about the material world is uncertain.

Oh the sweet feeling of uncertainty. There is nothing better than going to some website to learn that people have reported being followed or watched by black helicopters with no markings…. Sometimes hanging out in conventional traffic patterns and sometimes flying at tree top altitude…….Ok………..
So far ALL I have read about is how people are not liking those helicopters observing and following them…..
And I hear there are bigger problems now concerning these black helicopters driven by the shadow government……or should I SAY SMALLER PROBLEMS…..because now there is talk of small black helicopters that can be SO small that they can travel in your bloodstream…..AND REPRODUCE.

I don’t think those guys are so bad they are just persistant and they just want to be close to you.
I love helicopter attention….I mean they wouldn’t be following me if I was non-cool. They might be shy and so they just follow people around….wishing……they weren’t so shy. I see at least 5 different helicopters following me a day.
I named the one follows me from when I get in the car all the way to the beltway!!…..everyday. I am lucky to have such a devoted helicopter to follow me all that way.



I named him “Peep Master 5”. He follows me until the I go under the bridge for the train and I always make sure he sees me waving at him.

Let me tell you about an event that was well planned and worth the effort. Two days ago in the late afternoon, I went to a gas station and drove up to pump #3. I walked in the pay in advance. I asked the man to put $3.00 on pump #3.
Yesterday, Around the same time I went to the same gas station again. I drove up to pump #3. I walked in again to pay in advance. I again told the same man to put $3.00 on pump #3.
Today I went back to the same gas station. I drove up to pump #3 and filled up $3.00 worth. I walked in to pay the man afterwards. As I walked in he said “Oh hello again, that will be three doll…….three..three…three dollars on pump #3 again!!!?.” So I said… ”Three…Three…Three dollars it is then!”
Part of me just wanted to know why it was worth the effort…well I’m not really sure…..What!!!! What AM I sure of you say??!! Well I do know that a triangle has 3 sides and messages or events that come in three's are worth noticing. Whenever anything is mentioned three times it is a witness to us that they are of utmost importance.

What happened after I got home was this. I decided to start a game of Ninja Gadien. I also decided to eat a burrito.

Then I gave up…BECAUSE THE GAME WAS CHEATING or I was experiancig the Third initiation…But I do know for sure the game was cheating…….OR DO I??

6 Minutes from now it will be 3:00 am and half of six minutes is three minutes, which reminds me……During the Star Conference of the Native tribal leaders from around the globe, Steve Red Buffalo (Lakota) gave a talk about the Star People coming down from the Pleiades. The extra terrestrial telepathic message to the Iroquois was: "We are coming." The Iroquois Elders thought-responded, "Don't come; we are not prepared.' The Star People replied, "Prepare yourselves."



"Man is arrogant in proportion of his ignorance, For several ages he saw in the countless worlds that sparkle through space like the bubbles of a shore less ocean, only the petty candles . . . that Providence has been pleased to light for no other purpose but to make the night more agreeable to man. . . . Astronomy has corrected this delusion of human vanity, and man now reluctantly confesses that the stars are worlds, larger and more glorious than his own. . . . Everywhere, then, in this immense design, science.”

My mental body must not be where it should be this day of April 18th. No it’s not where it should be at all and To tell you the God Honest truth I don’t think it’s a big deal. While at Borders book store this afternoon in the metaphysical section I was in one of those crouched down positions people at bookstores do when they are “taking a closer look at the bottom shelf”….Only that’s not what I was doing….I was crouched down because a man had joined me in that small space and while I was standing flipping through pages I STARTED TO LOOSE MY COOL. This was because the man wasn’t really looking for books anymore he was just STANDING directly behind me….so close I could hear his small breathing sounds….It was so quiet and the pages I was turning were almost starting to sound OFFENSIVE to me!!! …..so I crouched down and pretended to “look at books on the bottom shelf”…….Eventually, I thought hmm ok yeah yeah nice book time to get up from this crouched position and go the fuck downstairs and to my car and……….WOA I’m already walking I don’t even remember getting up at all!....what is going on?! YIKES now I’m on the escalator!.....Wait!! WHAT IS AN ESCALATOR?! Wait!! WHAT IS WALKING?!

This Evening I was just about to leave for Artdecade and Teek’s house ………
Well I was, but as I was about to open the door…….I started to think deeply about how EMBARESSING it must be to science that 95% of the universe is unaccounted for because it’s composed of “Dark Matter” whose nature is still unknown!!!



I stayed in that position for a while and thought to myself, HOW can scientists tell us that gravity is losing some unknown battle and HOW can scientists tell us that nearly all galaxies in the universe receding from each other at an ever-faster pace WHEN THEY don’t even know what makes up the other 95% of the UNIVERSE!!?



By this time I was now sitting on the floor the doorknob still in hand….Wait!! WHAT IS A DOORKNOB?! The one thing I did know was I problably shouldn’t drive in such a contemplative state.

I have now returned to the section of Time and Space known as Northern Virginia. After helping others in the Florida vortex for over a little over a month I have come home with various successes from dimensional travel. The dimensional travel was much needed and easier to access in the Florida Vortex. I went back to Meep Island one last time to see the sunset and was actually able to stop time twice and quiet any of the usually funny but constant thinking/analyzing for 2 very important moments at Meep Island.

At sunset not another person was on the beach of Meep Island but me.......so I stopped time



The sun has always been the image of divine intelligence or wisdom.... The word "sol" (sun) was derived from "solus"... the One or He alone...It is a of a higher light dwelling in the vehicle of a God.

I went back out to the beach on meep Island later that evening. It dark now and I was hesitant to go down to the beach due to my fear of the various huge possible Eye beings dwelling in the depth if the dark ocean just waiting to open it's Huge Eye......But I went anyway. I got confused when I saw a ENORMOUS Red SPHERE rising up from the ocean....I said, "That's funny look at that! I thought the sun went down already?".......NO!!!!!!...just then My Soul tried to escape from my body dropping very fast what felt like a downwards motion in a great OVERWHELMING realization....That HUGE ENORMOUS sphere is not the sun it's 10:00pm......WHAT?!! That's the MOON!!!!!!!........Time had stopped again..............



Yes it was the Moon...And there I was in Time and Space.... and Here I am.....in Time and Space it only looks different. From the perspective of the 3rd Dimensian (the one you and I are in)...Northern Virginia looks like a gray shell and feels like one....But ......The same light can be seen but only if your NOT looking for the light of the PHYSICAL SUN....Yes there is more to that Sun up in the sky....it has a heart known as The Heart of the Sun and a Soul known as the Central Spiritual Sun.


"A burning sea of flame. Beyond, a radiant sun. Behind, a world of darkness, gloom and heavy rain - a rain of tears. There, in the center of a fire I stand, my eyes upon the sun. The vortex of the fire, the flaming rays of heat cast outward by the sun, blend with my fire and lo! it disappears. The greater fire blends with and consumes the little one. I turn and pass back - out of the light and warmth - into the world of gloom and mist and, as I turn, I hear a voice crying aloud: "Well done. Pass through the gloom; enter the mist; dry up the rain and tears and find yourself upon the other side, and near my heart."

Goodness and not gracious at all EVER AGAIN. I'm asking myself every other day around the times of 2pm and sometimes 11:14pm what it is that's pushing me and PUSHING me!? Not physically pushing me but that does eventually happen because energy WITHOUT A DOUBT always follows thought so when it does reach to my physical plane I'm not very shocked...seeing as how I have been first pushed on the MENTAL PLANE and actually the Astral Plane but that's not as important right now Because getting that fun little shove that makes me think back to the bigger question which is.........What is pushing me?!.....Ok I answered my own question by using the method of consulting myself from the other angle of the room....How silly and stupid of me to question the pushes I'm getting yep what a silly stupid thing to think of doing...Oh Wait My other self is still in the other angle of the room and is.....it doesn't look pleased I can tell because it's usually jumping up and down for fun.....hmmmmm....Ok it's not pleased because of the "silly stupid" comment I just made about my thinking about my questioning the push BECAUSE.........I Know I Know...the questioning of pushes is the process of realization and even though I think I don't have to go through the process for some reason I DO...Gawd... My other self really won't EVER let anything get by it I mean......come on....I know the push was just a nudge from the Elders of Sirius.......but......come on.
And...yes...The consciousness of the cosmic mental plane is the goal of attainment for our solar Logos and the Sirian Logos is to our solar Logos what the human Ego (or soul) is to the human personality.
What did I just hear you say?...No...Sirius is a real star not just a harry potter thought form introducing the name to millions of children.



"Vibrations reach us from Sirius, via the cosmic mental plane. Beings from sirius only appear usually and normally at the initiation of a solar Logos."

I was grilling hamburgers outside on the grill and I had a thought,......"Humans think that they are left uncared for, although the very phrases they use “the thought occurred to me; the idea came to me; the discovery flashed on me " unconsciously testify to the truth known to their inner selves though the outer eyes be blind. Every sphere is around us, the astral, the mental, the buddhic, the nirvânic, and worlds higher yet, the life of the supreme God ; we need not stir to find them, for they are here; but our dull unreceptivity shuts them out more effectively than millions of miles of mere space."



After hearing that quote spoken to me in my right ear...I think....I had another thought, "The lives of a disciple are generally lives of storm and stress, in order that the qualities which are normally evolved in a long succession of lives in the three worlds may in him be forced into swift growth and quickly brought to perfection. As he alternates rapidly from joy to sorrow, from peace to storm, from rest to toil, he learns to see in the changes the unreal forms, and to feel through all a steady unchanging life. He grows indifferent to the presence or the absence or the absence of things that thus come and go, and more and more he fixes his gaze on the changeless reality that is ever present."



Now I had burned not only other people's hamburger's but I had burned my own because I was to busy hearing quotes and how would I explain something like that...The one hallarious thing about hearing things is that these "voices" think it's funny to see if you can explain what's happening to the people around you who have ALready been socially programed to say things like "I dunno man sometimes you scare me" or "Your a wierd one Meepe"...
Dats Cool Wid dis meepe........
When I say "Oh hey guys WHoops looks like I burned your burgers!..Well you'll enjoy it because they were sacrificed to a flash of the inutition from some qoutes I heard in my right ear while I was outside!"......I COMPLETELY understand and know for a fact that what they are hearing and seeing me in my true form forcing its way into their sphere and THAT MUST BE WIERD.



"No fear or worry or care shake the emotional body of the aspiring servant of all. He cultivates serenity, stability, and a sense of secure dependence on God's law. A joyous confidence characterizes his habitual attitude. He harbors no jealousy, no cloudy grey depression, and no greed or self-pity, but - realizing that all men are brothers and that all that is exists for all - he proceeds calmly on his way".......to Meepland.

It turns out that choosing to do the thing you really don't want to do is usually the right thing to be doing. "GO against your will" it said and so I did with my arms crossed and thoughts forms of Resentment A'forming. So choosing the path of any form of abandonment of selfish wants is in MY OPINION the bumpiest MFing path
BUT...No worry's ....that's just my personality's opinion..... because now that the other part's of myself enjoy this path I've taken....I heard my personality say.."Oh yeah....yeah I like it too I just didn't want to say it before"
Meddling personality.







"When man quickly sees the truth in all that he contacts, and automatically chooses truth or the real, then he learns next the lesson of joyful action, and the path of bliss opens before him. When this is so, the path of occultism becomes possible for him, for the concrete mind has served its purpose, and has become his instrument and not his master, his interpreter and not his hinderer."

I am in a pocket of Time and Space in what I call The Flordia Vortex. I am
continuing to help my Dad and his wife with their buisness in the form of ACCOUNTING for the next couple of weeks full of ACCOUNTING and a few breaks here and there.



This is my Dad who is "working" on Top secret things?



When no one was looking I ran away for a break in this wierd place.


"It is possible to reach a point where naught that occurs can ruffle the inner calm; Such an attitude and experience is for all those who persist in their high endeavor, who count all things but naught if they may but achieve the goal, and who steer a steady course through circumstances, keeping the eyes fixed upon the vision ahead, the ears attentive to the Voice of the God within, that sounds in the silence of the heart; the feet firmly placed on the path that leads to the Portal of Initiation; the hands held out in assistance to the world, and the whole life subordinated to the call of service. Then all that comes is for the best - sickness, opportunity, success, and disappointment, the gibes and machinations of enemies, the lack of comprehension on the part of those we love - all is but to be used, and all exists but to be transmuted. Continuity of vision, of aspiration, and of the inner touch, is seen to be of more importance than them all. That continuity is the thing to be aimed at, in spite of, and not because of circumstances."

I have made it my will to go and help my Dad and his wife in Flordia with their buisness for 3 weeks. "I Seek to serve not exact due service".


"Joy settles as a bird within the heart but has winged its way from the secret place within the head. I am that bird of joy. Therefore, with joy I serve."

"In and out of the light, as a moth around a candle, flicker the sparks. These sparks are men, awakened to the light, but men who know not that the greater Light puts out their little light and draws the sparks unto itself. They cannot face the light. They fear its utter truth. They come, they go, again do they return, only again to leave."

What kind of great chaotic reality do we live in, where our SUN is big enough to fit a million earths inside of it and draw our attention enough to look up at it’s size and how it can fill the ENTIRE sky with radiant light…………Only to have it’s picture taken and show up as a very small circle because the size I percieved is an illusion….. but the light it gives off can still be seen the same in the picture as it was when I looked and is not an illusion……………

Well light is what it is and always seems to be persistant as long as your looking around for it.



It’s appears I can’t get this light concept off my mind. No really I CAN’T. Help Me Get it Off. No I’m dead Serious Get It Off Me. I’m really only ¼ serious don’t worry about it.


I like to keep on the move and that means I get to take over ArtDecades room and bed. This is where I will be (my new bed) when anyone is reading this very sentence I am typing right now.


I can’t help but go into extreme wonder concerning what this harsh electronic looking fork tower does. I want to know it’s function and purpose and it better be good to make up for looking so harsh.

“As above, so below. Sidereal phenomena, and the behavior of the celestial bodies in the heavens, were taken as a model, and the plan was carried out below, on earth. Thus, space, in its abstract sense, was called 'the realm of divine knowledge, and by the Chaldees or Initiates Ab Soo, the habitat...of knowledge, because it is in space that dwell the intelligent Powers which invisibly rule the Universe."


Mercy. This thing keeps happening…..and when thing happens it produces a small chalkboard to appear with green writing on it that says “VOID”……at first I thought this VOID thing was F-ing shitty….. I mean what the hell is a VOID anyway and why the F should I even care about it…. especially coming from a chalkboard from another dimension that I accidentally can’t shut the door to BUT then I found out that the VOID was the key to shutting the door to the dimension .
I can’t believe it, I had been looking in the dimension I’m in now the whole time for a way to shut the door to that other dimension meanwhile seeing that chalkboard with “VOID” written on it in that other dimension thinking it was just shitty and weird
IGNORANT to the fact it was the very key to shutting the door to the very dimension it was located in. It’s really no big deal seeing as how the situation isn’t even a situation anymore. What’s really Important is I found a Kit Kat in my bag this very second and that makes me think, I really respect the fact that I shove things places and forget about them consciously so that I can subconsciously surprise myself when I’m subconsciously ready for a surprise. YA. Yesterday me and ArtDecade and Teek went to the Mall to get Teek's paycheck and ArtDecade drove because Teek doesn’t like my awesome meep driving or my awesome meep car. ArtDecade threw my pancakes out his car window which made the driver behind us want some pancakes like hell. Art Decade and me went to the Korean grocery store today and he bought me some Melon Gum. I don’t favor Saturday nights *sigh,…………..sigh*.
I ate SIX McDonald’s apple pies today for the soul reason that they are 2 for $1.00 and me and ArtDecade played Tetris.

light and darkness, belong to different dimensions. Physically seen, light shining through a void has no effect on the void, as the void contains nothing that can absorb or reflect the light. Conversely, as the void contains nothing, nothing can be aware of the fact that light has passed through it.

President Bush has dispatched a shadow government of about 100 senior civilian managers to live and work secretly outside Washington. Officials who are activated for what some of them call "bunker duty" live and work underground 24 hours a day.

President Bush did this because he is a really nice guy. He is just really worried about us here in Northern Virginia because we are his friends. He is so cool and awesome that he even set up his most secret friends to watch us all time even if we are just going to the store or to our cars or driving around in our cars or inside our homes. I am lucky to have a group of secret friends to watch me all the time so I know I'm not alone.


AS FOR OFFENSIVE MICROWAVE WEAPONS:
The effects of these microwave weapons are many. The central nervous system will produce effects which might be described as Satanic possession. Remote motor control can be used to murder by suicide, "accident", suffocation, asphyxiation and heart attack, or to simply neutralize the victim by making words come out of his/her mouth which he/she had no intention of speaking. Human beings can be and are being sadistically tortured in the privacy of their own homes. The bizarre objective of this treatment is to mentally and physically torture the victim until his/her own personality collapses.

Well I guess there's only ONE THING WE CAN DO ABOUT THAT! NO one is going to like this.
We are just going to have to.............stop using microwaves. Shucks. The Best Way to stop using Microwaves is to have ME come over to your house and cook ANYTHING from the Korean grocery store.

Where is it?.........No really,…..Where the Damned is it? The door labeled “Thoughts Destined to Manifest” that leads you down a hallway that takes you to that room???
You know, the hallway that has all those Glass framed pictures of thought forms all titled “We Personally MOCK You” hung up and lining the walls. With that room at the end of that hallway that has a door made of really weak wood…………… And on the other side of that door has that gallery exhibit of thought forms in glass cases all titled “stagnant negative energy you never acted on”

Oh wait, wait just a minute… never mind I just found it.

***Walks in the door labeled “Thoughts Destined to Manifest” smashes all the glass framed pictures titled “We Personally Mock You” breaks down the door at the end of the hallway made up of really weak wood and smashes all the glass cases titled “stagnant negative energy you never acted on” then walks over to a corner in the room where there is
A Raspberry smotthie
and Five Nestle Crunch Valentine Individually wrapped miniature peanut butter crème bars and thinks to self…..It’s a Good thing that door was made of really weak wood….***

Every human being knows fear, and the range of the fear vibrations extends from the instinctual fears of the savage man, based on his ignorance of the laws and forces of nature, and of his terror of the dark and the unknown, to the fears prevalent today of loss of friends and loved ones, of health, of money, of popularity, and on to the fear of failure, the fear which has its roots in doubt, the fear of ultimate negation or of annihilation, the fear of death, the fear of the great illusion of the astral plane, of the phantasmagoria of life itself, and also fear of loneliness on the Path of life, even to the very fear of Fear itself.

Fears dominate most situations and darken many happy moments. They reduce man to a timid and frightened atom of sentient life, standing afraid before the stupendousness of the problems of existence, aware of his insufficiency as a man to cope with all the situations, and unable to leave his fears and questionings behind and step into his heritage of freedom and of life. Often he is so ridden by fear that he becomes afraid of his very reasoning.

who wants to meet on the astral plane at 1am?

Scientists say this new image found in the constellation Cepheus will help them learn how stars form in the crowded environments of stellar nurseries and oh yeah they mumbled under their breath that it was pretty too.



While driving today I tried to come up with a formula to reveal to me what Valentines Day does to the mass emotion or mass thought of the people I was sitting in traffic with. I know about the mass emotion called Christmas rage…which the purest kind of rage by the way. However, I had no luck in coming up with any formula at all…… due to the fact that while I was off in formula land…..I would loose my focus on driving and especially breaking causing Teek to get frustrated or at least cause me to think he was....then loosing focus again I would think how funny It was that I was repeatedly forgetting to keep focus ……..So the conclusion I came to was………

Valentines Day + loss of focus – disregard to care to focus + listening to music loud and not thinking is better= I don’t want to be sitting at this computer right now I’d rather be hanging out with someone why am I still typing ok time to stop typing well looks like I haven’t stopped and there is no one here to say stop typing so I guess I will have to use my own willpower.

*mumbles under breath “That space rose is pretty” *

Rule Seven - A Treatise on White Magic
"The dual forces on the plane (whereon the vital power must be sought) are seen; The two paths face the solar Angel; The poles vibrate. A choice confronts the one who meditates."


Thought revealed to the thinker that his hatreds, criticism, and selfish motives were originally intended to do something good
1. His hatred and Criticism was to prove to others that he is right. That what he says is a smart better thing to say. Proving to others that he is no doubt, a worthy knowledgeable good person who is fighting to prove his rightness in a wrong world around wrong people.
2. His selfish motives were to make his personal life better for him….by any means.
The thinker thought about this and thought to himself, “What I say, think, and do isn’t so bad” Then thought revealed to him another thing. He had already realized that what comes out as Hatred, Criticism, and Selfish was originally meant to do good in his perspective and that could only mean ONE thing……..everyone around him could possibly be meaning to do good wanting the same worth, rightness, and a better life for themselves and that’s not so bad.
Tired of thinking he tried to stop but then realized that himself and everyone else had built a ½ invisible prison of nothing but criticism, hate, and selfish motives. How this ½ invisible prison works is that if you trying not to notice it …….. it will get pissed off to point that it will no doubt punch you in the face until you notice it. Until you get so angry about getting punched you gain the ability to actually STOP time out of pure anger and frustration to punch it back……..only to………have the experience of seeing yourself from a birds eye view……Having the ability to STOP time.
Well shit! That solves everything! When the Prison is ½ visible you say things like “why does this always happen to me?” or “here we go again” or “why do you always have to be like this?”……..And that is “everybody gets depressed only SOMETIMES”.
When the prison is ½ invisible it’s invisible causing you no trouble, you to be right and others to be wrong.
CYCLES of ½ invisible and ½ visible what a terrible horrible prison.

I’m going to talk about a little something that’s been on my mind.
SAIC aka Scientific Applications International Corporation
SAIC is directed by some of the highest-ranking oligarchs of the Department of Defense and intelligence groups.
They’ve got these awesome things called "black projects" including psychic warfare operations, Remote Viewing Psychic Spy studies for the CIA and DIA. Right now they are keeping busy with some Top Secret Anti Gravity projects and they are doing it right here in Tysons Corner, VA :D

All of that is perfectly fine with me....I mean the Government is always working with scientists and psychics on top secret projects....I mean come on I must admit scientists AND psychics working together really spices things up!

BUT what does Bother me is....Within a 5 block Radius in the city of Tysons Corner they have FIVE different SAIC locations and in the ODDEST places. I know I pay an awful lot of attention to detail...for instance my hobby of memorizing and keeping track of all the pothole’s on the roads I travel and such...But if I wasn’t so comically paranoid I wouldn’t have been paying attention and when you don’t pay attention enough you start the habit of putting your life on Auto-piolet and thus start the process of becoming a ZOMBIE.

SO I went out and gave a little Hello to all the SAIC buildings in hopes that all those Remote Viewers & Psychics would pick up on my awareness and presence so that maybe they could relay to the Scientist’s that they’re OTHER Top secret Project called “lets scatter the buildings within a 5 block Radius without worrying about those zombie civilians who definitely won’t notice” isn’t working because not all the civilians are zombies. There are Torie's out there too.

HERE IS THE FIRST SAIC

THE SECOND SAIC DOWN THE STREET

ME IN DISBELIEF

ANOTHER SAIC DOWN 4 BLOCKS

YET ANOTHER SAIC DOWN ANOTHER BLOCK

SUP SAIC! IM STANDING IN ONE OF YOUR MANY PARKING LOTS AND I’M AWARE OF THIS SILLY CRAP

Time and Space. Time and Space. Time and Space. Time and Space. This seems to be a re occurring theme. I am looking around me and seeing the objects in the room…I am starting to have thoughts that wonder if I am alone. I really only have to wonder this thought for a second to realize that when I purpose to myself that I am alone my brain can accept that I am alone very quickly as a fact. My brain computes to my body that it doesn’t see anyone, hear anyone, and earlier memories of data tell me that Jeff went to party and has not come home yet AND the sum total of all that data equals that no one is here and I am alone on a regular night doing a regular thing.
BUT WAIT……….My brain just commented that the MIND and the BRAIN are two different things and that means…… The “Fact” that I am alone is only a true fact to my Brain and my brain alone.
There are other factors in my being telling me otherwise. That would Explain the very reason that I questioned being alone in the first place. I mean If I only relied on my brain then I would have assumed “I am alone in a room. I am typing. On a regular night. A headache is forming on right side of head. Thirsty. Slightly hungry.”……….and that would be that no questions asked. BUT THERE WAS A QUESTION ASKED. And there is a answer to that question and the answer is that I want a drink…..No wait the answer to that question is I am never alone.

To take it to the next level.
Did you here…that from the Universe’s perspective Earth means “Planet of Sorrows” My mind is blown at the Obvious Accuracy of that statement. Don’t get me wrong….rolling down hills, banana cream pie’s, and sometimes kicking the backs of people feet as they walk so they trip a little…..has it perks. It’s not enough to make me want to keep being reincarnated back here over and over again. I am going to use my God Damned free will to believe in and get to know the world’s outside the physical limited one….I mean there’s only so much you can do here and to even obtain comfort (By any means) you have to go through Hellish obstacles.
For Example, If I meet someone I want to be in a relationship with. First meeting is fun fun fun….Then after a while If I decide I want to be with that person for a long time I have to start recognizing the faults that might hinder my goal. To even obtain comfort and happiness in a relationship with someone you already love you still get thrown into abyss called take a CLOSE look at your shitty side get to see their shitty side pay no attention to it, be sympathetic, stop being shitty and then make it work. Not everyone succeeds at doing this and being in a relationship is one of the happier experiences on Earth.
We are all going to go through Death and experience something other than the physical. Thinking about it is to overwhelming because it’s unknown but the real silly thing its it doesn’t even have to be. You will not find Physical proof of a non-Physical world and that’s just logical.

This world and its realities are puzzling cities piled and overlapping each other..HOWEVER the picture above is REAL 10th Century Tibetan Illustration....
I have to admit It would be easy to get lost if you were driving through a bad neighborhood consisting of thousands of New Age channelers and sometimes star trek fans unable to pull themselves away from the Parasite known as The Star Trek thought form......Yeah......so whatever you do pay close attention driving through that neighborhood....Never think you can look away from the road while driving down New Age Street.....Not even to take the last bite of your MSG McDonalds hamburger that you love...and ask yourself..
"Do I really even like this hamburger...Or is my perception HORRIBLY distorted due to the fact that I'm driving down New Age Street....And what's a hamburger!???"

Besides that I got pulled over by a state trooper.
He was nice.
However, I had terribly offended him.

TROOPER: Do you know why I pulled you over!!?

Me: I was speeding.

TROOPER: You saw me back there and when I pretended to get off the highway on an exit you sped right back up and when I got back on you were GOING 80 Mph!! DO YOU KNOW THE SPEED LIMIT!??

Me: 55 or 50.

TROOPER: its 55!..............

Me:..........................

TROOPER: YOU WERE GOING 80 Mph........

Me:..........................

TROOPER: That's WRECKLESS DRIVING!!!....Open your door!! *tries to reach in and unlock door violently*....*shines flashlight on pavement*......DO YOU SEE HOW MUCH ROOM YOU LEFT ME TO STAND???....I COULD HAVE BEEN HIT BY CARS!!....PULL YOUR CAR OVER MORE AND I'll BE BACK AFTER I RUN YOUR LISCENSE!!

Me: *while waiting with Jeff*.......Well Jeff he just doesn't understand that I don't limit myself with speed limits......I also think he a little on the destructive paranoid side...poor guy thinking people are watching him on the highway getting off and on exits...he also thinks the speed limit is 55 when it's 50 because of the temporary construction.....I guess he was so paranoid he missed the sign behind us.........*Trooper comes back*

TROOPER: ok I'm gonna let you off with a warning. slow down out there.

He was nice.

KEEP this in mind....YOU COULD FIT A MILLION EARTHS INSIDE OUR SUN........A MILLION. And the sun is WHAT SIZE IN COMPARISON to this entity?!.......I don't know about anyone else but I have had nightmares about things like this.........
That's IT your all Fired.



can I borrow a feeling?

There I was again. Sitting on another plane..Sitting and trying as hard as I could not to loose my attention zoneing out on the tired stewardess who I thought for a second.....Just a fraction of a second could hear the one of many thoughts in my head saying in a shakepearion voice "She looketh 1,000 years of Age.......If Age= Very tired face and hate for a stewardess life"....If she heard that..She tried to pull it off as if she didn't and by that time I didn't even care anymore anyways...Hmmm by the way I let myself enjoy the astral world of Universal Studios for yet another adventure of my Awesome Ego. I have to say the Height of the experiance was grabbing all the crackers on the room service trays outside hotel rooms with the help of Meepo(Spudnick).....not to mention that I found out my long lost brother will dance a 13 year olds dance in any crowd no matter the thickness of it. I got alot of pictures of that and listened to him explain about a world he came from called ....PeePee world...Where Volcanos are just his God getting a hard on..... Where he comes from they know God is happy when volcanos pop up and erupt. Is this the planet where the 5th root race is coming into incarnation from?...I'm not quite sure.....I'm not quite sure anything anyway so It's a possibility. I'm in Texas at my moms now staying in CalicoDreams room. My mom gave me a letter I wrote the Tooth fairy when I was five and here it is word for word:

Dear Toothfairy?
When will I loose another Tooth!
I can't wait. This time I don't want your mony. I'm crazy for Chocolate please can I have a 3 muskateer bar PlEASE! and a little packige of skittles.

P.S
Please write back. My Mom said You worn't going to give me anything for some reason but she's not the tooth fairy. or is she.

Sorry for the Trouble
Victoria Torie

Which reminds me NO MAN CAN BE A HYPOCRITE IN THE ASTRAL WORLD. I am trying to figure out a good way to never ever go to the sixth sub division of the astral world prostituting my talents. No. No. No. No.

No.No.No.No. Why is Is Liberation so Sticky?

So for this thing they call "Christmas" I found myself asleep in one of those black chairs connected to other black chairs at the Airport. I only fell asleep for like 16 seconds because......well falling asleep in airports isn't too safe these days as you know already. I was yelled to stop by a CIA agent in the airport with Rubber Gloves saying I had dropped something.....I stopped and the guy picked up a Big Piece Of Grey LINT on the ground and all he could say was "OH it's just a piece of lint, I guess I'll be throwing this away now...." I KNEW IT!!Paranoid CIA security is afraid of LINT!!!!!.............I wake up and DAMN I'm still in this Body with the damned incarnation of a out of control EGO with a Karma problem...Its only a problem because I don't know what the debt that I have to pay is yet. I mean I have a good idea ......(mental control over a moron that calls itself "mean meeper keeper of earth other wise known as the planet of sorrows???)........What the Hell you ask yourself..... I'm asking myself the same question. So I went to a swamp the other day and got in this boat.....I saw a couple of alligators hanging out and looked those bastards right in the eyes. Get ready to laugh....The southern park ranger who was driving the boat very badly....said " Those Gators are always looking for a hand out!"......get it. Yeah I get and when I got it I threw that shit right in the swamp water along with my attention. I met a ghost in the room I'm staying in. It turns the light off for me every night..it laughs at me around 2:00pm everyday...It even turn the shower on for me....I would thank it but I don't feel like it. This place did use to be a Plantation with slaves so It might just be working or something. I am still here in this Demention called Tallahassee Florida in my long lost brothers room on his labtop with the space bar sticking a little bit giving me a reason to type louder. I can't stop eating at this place they call Sonic and this huge old house has something called a fireplace which I can't stop making fires in. I am going to another place called Orlando that I originally thought was in the Astral plane and wasn't really tangible but Non The LESS I'm going there and am looking forward to it. After this Flordia experience I will be going to Demention called Texas. Will I work out more Karma..........we'll have to see.

For over a year now I have driven through the 4 layers of Hell. The worst layer is what they call Interstate 495/395…..AKA….The Inter Loop of the Beltway. I am fortunate enough to have worked out a Mathematical Formula called “I Won’t Die Like This” my formula works in any paralyzing Traffic situation. In the past year It worked during the famous “Sniper Shootings” when they would close down the beltway, set up check points to search your car take things out of the trunk with Assault Rifles, It even worked during an Incident when driving on 395 to suddenly see A Swat Team jumped out from the medians and bridge with Assault Rifles running into the beltway forcing us to halt. The Snowstorm this past year with 28 inches of snow on the Already Awesome Interstate with people still going 70 Mph….AND the usual Traffic Rage shootings, Traffic Rage, people literally getting out of their cars to knock on windows of other cars to ask if they want their asses kicked, Cars running each other off the road for fun and for cutting each other off. I might be lucky to have worked out an equation to get around it…….but the others……… One time during bumper to bumper traffic I saw a man in a business suit pull over and lay on the ground to go to sleep! Why didn’t he just sleep in his car you ask? Because he’s lost his mind from the traffic!!
"Three kinds of people live and work in metropolitan Washington: The very rich, The lucky, and those doomed to commute." Washington DC’s Traffic is 2nd worst in the country after Los Angeles. They drive 15 million more miles each weekday than five years ago…..THAT’S Enough every 12 days……to travel to the SUN and BACK. They spend an average of 76 hours a year bogged down in traffic, a 150 percent increase in the last 18 years"

*giggling* The Government is so silly....They are so cute when they think they're Important

A Phone Conversation Earlier
GOVERNMENT: So your Victoria?……
ME: Yep that’s me
GOVERNMENT: So You got the letter We sent you?….
ME: Yep I got it.
GOVERNMENT: Your to see Us on the 20th…….The 20th of …………..
ME: ….January?……
GOVERNMENT: Yes January… Feel free to call Us if you have any questions……..Do you have Our number?
ME: Well it shouldn’t it be on the letter?
GOVERNMENT: ……………….*Pause*….. Yes……Yes it should be on the letter.

When the Government calls, I find it’s always best to answer there questions but I can’t stop my Ego from getting the last word in by asking them a question at the end of the conversation.
Watch out for Calls like that I tell myself, It’s a well known fact that when the Government calls they always have a Scientist listening in on one phone and a Psychic listening in on another. Be ready I tell myself, Be ready, Be Ready, Be ready, Be Ready, …I’m starting to Loop again….there’s nothing wrong with a good loop. Everyone who not a zombie appreciates a good Loop from time to time. Is the world ready for the 5th dimension? Would this state of my consciousness know the correct answer to that question anyway? Why bother asking out loud these types of questions knowing well that my current state of consciousness might answer them ignorantly? It’s a risk I must take. It’s a risk to drive on Interstate 395 at 10:00pm on a Friday night during the Yearly Celebration Known as Christmas RAGE (The PUREST kind of Rage by the way)……Oh yeah To Whom It may Concern…..TYSONS, VA at the intersection of Old Gallows RD and Leesburg Pike Immediately after the light in the right lane there was a HUGE DEEP hole in the road which was finally fixed and filled with crap that made the hole into more of a hump rather than a hole but……Better..….Thank you for that.
However, My peace of mind about that Horrible hole lasted for 1 month and 3 days and was completely Shattered yesterday evening while DRIVING INTO THAT HORRIBLE HOLE THAT HAD ALREADY FILLED??? HOW IS THIS POSSIBLE? I know there is someone to fill the holes…..But NOW I’m STARTING to think there is a Person with NO DIGNITY UNFILLING the holes as well. Yes THAT must be it because I didn’t go Back in Time Yesterday ..Unless… I did it unconsciously and That’s impossible as well because I am in the work of Merging the Conscious, Subconscious, and Unconscious. I am aware of this UNfilling Holes in the Road Business………. I am AWARE.

If you don't take the test I might think your weak.................

http://Meepe.friendtest.com.

You aren't weak are you?

“The astral plane is the plane of illusion, of glamour, and of a distorted presentation of reality.” Master Djwhal Kuhl

The next time you look at the sky and see a huge ass moon and say to yourself....”oh look at that huge moon I am an idiot and want to take a picture of this HUGE moon because it is really HUGE tonight!”…..You will realize when you get that picture developed that you are insane…… THAT’S RIGHT because that HUGE moon you saw is nothing but a little tiny moon in the picture proving that you’re INSANE.
The Moon Can APPEAR so big in the sky sometimes when it’s on the horizon…….. well guess what Not everything you see is the truth you know…………the Moon's changing size is just an illusion…. The next time you see a giant Moonrise turn your self around, bend over, and look at the Moon through your legs. Seeing it upside-down completely destroys the illusion ……Oh yeah and proves and validates your insanity while punching you in the face screaming that a lot of the things you see in life are distorted. Thinkers throughout history have struggled to explain this illusion, and today the little-understood phenomenon is still a subject of controversy.
CONSIDER these unnerving facts …..As what they are …..FACTS.
Even in the vacuum of space Earth does not lose its air….hmmmmm
Fixed stars never move, even though they are found in a moving, expanding universe.
We never see the back of the sun, although we are moving around it……while the low and high tides happen at exactly the opposite sides of the earth.
That you can not see any stars from the “so called Pictures taken from the moon.”

That it is still not possible to obtain scientific measurement data about the shape and size of the moon.
The magnetic field of the earth is supposed to be caused by an iron core at the center of the earth, although it is known that iron becomes UN magnetic at the Curie point at 750° C .
I find that not enough people take a look around them to make sure That what the general public believes is real……………actually is or not…………………………… Not Me no way. I will never apologize for taking a long wooden stick to poke everything they say is real. I absolutely have to make sure I poke it really hard with my stick to see if it’s dead…..alive……or a really big stupid Illusion……..I find that most of the time it’s alive to those who think it’s the truth and it screams SO LOUD when I poke it….but through my eyes it looks like a Big stupid illusion.
When we “Went to The Moon” 1969 ?..........
New evidence revealing significant errors in continuity between the Apollo still photos and the 'live' TV coverage suggests that NASA hoaxed the official record of mankind's first visit to the Moon.
Umm this is like thirty years later and technology is still inadequate for the safe passage of human beings through the lethal radiation that awaits all those who venture through the Earth’s radiation belts into deep space……….
So we either lost the technology like we loose a sock in the dryer or HOW ABOUT we never went to the moon in 1969 and it was all filmed in a studio…………….
No problem lets just asked those guys…… you know….the astronauts who walked on the Moon to see if this whole ordeal was faked!!!

Buzz Aldrin Apollo astronaut:
“Well you’re talking to the wrong guy! Why don’t you talk to the administrator at NASA? We were passengers.”
Dr Brian O'Leary, astronaut:
"If some of the film was spoiled, it's remotely possible they [NASA] may have shot some scenes in a studio environment to avoid embarrassment."

Oh Boy that doesn’t sound to convincing. Another thing about the moon......Neil Armstrong relayed the message to Mission Control that two large, mysterious objects were watching them after having landed near the moon module. But this message was never heard by the public - because NASA censored it …..If we did go to the moon …… Here is a real quoted conversation from Neil Armstrong and NASA about our friend the moon..........

NASA: What’s there?
Mission Control calling Apollo 11...
APOLLO11: These "Babies" are huge, Sir! Enormous!
OH MY GOD! You wouldn't believe it!
I'm telling you there are other spacecraft out there,
Lined up on the far side of the crater edge!
They're on the Moon watching us!

A certain professor, who wished to remain anonymous, was engaged in a discussion with Neil Armstrong during a NASA symposium.

PROFESSOR: What REALLY happened out there with Apollo 11?
ARMSTRONG: It was incredible, of course we had always known
there was a possibility, the fact is, we were
warned off! (by the Aliens). There was never any
question then of a space station or a moon city.
PROFESSOR: How do you mean "warned off"?
ARMSTRONG: I can't go into details, except to say that their
ships were far superior to ours both in size and
technology - Boy, were they big! and menacing!
No, there is no question of a space station.
PROFESSOR: But NASA had other missions after Apollo 11?
ARMSTRONG: Naturally - NASA was committed at that time, and
couldn't risk panic on Earth. But it really was a
quick scoop and b